i have SUCH. a love hate relationship with a little life. part of me feels so so guilty for reading it. like i shouldn’t be privy to jude’s life like this and jude’s life doesn’t deserve to be an emotional climax in a novel (which at times it does feels like to me). but i am probs only saying this cos it’s the only book to properly make me cry like sob sob. but also because it makes me feel this way i think it is a such a creative feat like it really is an astounding read but also like i wouldn’t wish the experience of reading it upon anyone. and i don’t really want it to be made into a tv series on further thought.

this lady i met who’s a social worker said that her husband (who works in IT) always says that her job doesn’t bring anything to their family and i nearly popped off. “your job is vital to society, anyone could do your husband’s job our society needs more roles cantered around sensitivity and care. your job may not bring much to your family financially but it gives much more in other ways etc etc etc” and then she started getting really aggressively defensive of her dickhead husband like no offence but what was i meant to do in that situation she set me up