How was I supposed to know how steer this ship?
How the hell was I supposed to steer this ship?
It was an expensive mistake
You can’t say you’re sorry and it’s over
I was given a body that is falling apart
My house is falling apart
And I was given a mind that can’t control itself
(And what about the pain I’m in right now?)
And I was given a ship that can’t steer itself
(And what about a vacation?)
And what about a vacation to feel good?
My horse broke his back and left me here
How was I supposed to know?
And God won’t forgive me
And you won’t forgive me
Not unless I open up my heart
And how am I supposed to do that
When I go to this same room every night
And sleep in the same bed every night?
The same fucking bed
Red comforter with the white stripes
And the yellow ceiling light makes me feel like I’m dying
This sea is too familiar
How many nights have I drowned here?
How many times have I drowned?
I give up
I give up